Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Coming to grips


So since our Sunday shoot it has become very apparent how much we (girls especially) obsess over our looks. It's no longer just slight insecurity, but full blown neurosis.

I have been sending all my derby sistas their photos from the shoot. I never sent them "drunk" looking shots, closed eyes, weirdo looks, nothing like that. I only sent pretty (from my perspective) photos. And I cannot believe the response I have received.

These beautiful girls don't see it. All they see is a wrinkle here, flab there, big this, small that. It's so completely sad. These are gorgeous, powerful, smart, creative women, who have reduced themselves to a 400 pixel wide sum of imperfections.

Years ago, I was caught up in the over contrasty photos to hide what I saw as imperfections. How many photos did I display with no dang nose? But thousands of photos later...I seriously just don't care. Now I don't want a really BAD photo of myself on my blog, but I realize that when I am walking around in this world, I am not floating in a cloud of Photoshop. Every step makes a jiggle, and everyday the wrinkles are spreading....but really...what am I supposed to do? I put up the photos that show less of my gut and move on.

I don't think there is anything wrong with saturating your photos some, adjusting the curves, etc. But really....out of 20 images...surely there is one you can be satisfied with.

I am not angry with these girls..I am just stunned. They are so pretty and yet Cosmo has led them to believe that they're not good enough. I want to punch advertisers in the facehole.

To my derby sisters & women all over the world. "You're pretty and I'll call you tomorrow." Men - That's all we really want to hear.

p.s. Big thanks to Lena Regina and Dan Murphy for taking most of their Sunday to take photos for the NWA Rollergirls. We love and appreciate you!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

"On Our Walls Hang Dead Deer"








(I look drunk?)

Monday, January 28, 2008

Warriors

So a few months ago, my and my fellow rollergirls cast our breasts fo an event this coming March:

"The Bout Against Breast Cancer"
Sunday, March 9, 2008 7:00 PM
Broken Arrow Roller Sports Arena (161st (Elm Street))
Green Country Roller Girls vs. Northwest Arkansas Roller Girls

The event will be held at the Broken Arrow Roller Sports Arena, located just south of the Broken Arrow Expressway on 161st (Elm Street Exit), Sunday, March 9 at 7 p.m. They will face the Northwest Arkansas Roller Girls out of Fayetteville, and both teams will have “breast impression casts” made that will be decorated by local artists and auctioned at the bout. More than 250,000 American women younger than 40 live with breast cancer and more than 11,500 young women will be diagnosed in the next year. The Young Survival Coalition will be the beneficiary of the proceeds. Not only will this bout be educational, it will be exciting! Roller Derby women are TOUGH, and so are breast cancer survivors!

Dimah Darling designed my cast after it set...I love it. It's so beautiful.



Other casts can be seen here.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Strike A Pose

So NWARG's photos are this weekend. Since we totally embrace our redneck surroundings and breedin', we have decided to photograph the Arkansas Killbillies and the Backwoods Betties at Neal's Cafe in Springdale.


(Photo courtesy www.lunchtour.com)

I hope they turn out the way I imagine. If you have never been to Neal's read the following quote to get an idea about what the place looks like:

"One thing that should be re-intereated is exactly how many dead animals graced the walls of this establishment. It's like Daniel Boone and Davey Crocket decided to open a restaurant and hired Ted Nugent to decorate it.

Everything on the INSIDE of Neal's is Uber Macho: the dead animal carcasses, the gun racks, the HUGE servings of deap-fried meats, and the downright wasteful amounts of starches and vegetables served. Paired with the danger of getting stung by a bee at anytime.

However … the OUTSIDE is painted PINK."


-GONZO (replied to this restaurant review)

Lena Regina will be shooting.....which is a match made in heaven. Lena is THE most imaginative and colorful photographer I know. The fact that she herself is a model REALLY helps, especially when needing to get 30+ girls to look amazing in a a single photo.

So hopefully I will be posting some shots of us redneck rollergirls this weekend!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Snap, Crackle, Pop



I had never been to the chiropractor.....until last week, and now I have been 3 times.

While many people do not subscribe to the thought that chiropractors are real docotors and that they really help, I have to say that I feel great. For about a year now I have had this issue with turning my head fully. When I went past a certain degree, it would feel as though something was catching between my shoulder blades causing lots of pain. Not being able to fully turn your head in derby is pretty dangerous...looking around constantly will save your ass....but I have just been dealing with it. Well after last Tuesday's Betties practice...and after some good hits and some grande falls, the "catch" turned into an "OUCH!" So the following morning I hooked up an appointment with Dr. Whitelaw, the chiropractor for the Arkansas Razorbacks. Three visits later, I am in full rotation and feeling good. Go Hogs!

Our first bout of the season is in 20 days. I am totally freaked out and completely excited all at the same time. The trip includes driving down with Miss Riot, Miss Spark Plug, and Captain Jay...partying it up in a hotel for two nights and hopefully not suffering any hospital bound injuries. I really don't think I am up to a level ready to play such an experienced league, but what a rollergirl to do? You just gotta skate and turn left.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Sk8 or Die

Seriously. Isnt' this the cutest skater boy ever?

Young Travis ripping it up in the late 80's.


Actually he said it was either 89' or 90'....that would be the year I graduated high school.
Ummmm yeah.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

For several days now

I have been staring at this:


Mark has been staring at this:


And the pugs are bored:

Saturday, January 12, 2008

On to more important things:

Friday, January 11, 2008

Makeup A.D.D.

So I am currently in Sybil mode with my makeup looks. Though there are many variations, I still see-saw between the Smokey Eye/Nude Lip version of me and the Shimmer Eye/Red Lip version of me. Any comments?



Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Another entry to annoy Zac

When asked about my veganism I usually include the phrase "but I'm not preachy about it." Well as the obesity epidemic continues to kill us, and after a year of driving behind Tyson (barely) alive chicken trucks, I'd have to say that I am omitting that part of my vegan shpiel.

So here's another (long) food for thought entry:

Organic and Free-Range Animal Products: Fact or Fiction?
A recent Gallup poll found that 96 percent of Americans believe that animals should be protected from cruelty, yet animals on today's farms receive no protection from even the worst abuses. As people become more aware of the horrors of factory farming, companies are responding by adding labels to their products with comforting words such as "organic," "free-range," "cage-free," and "natural." These labels may conjure up images of animals who roam freely in green pastures, but the reality of life and death for animals on organic and free-range farms is very different.

On organic and free-range farms, most animals are mutilated without the use of painkillers, kept in filthy, disease-ridden sheds, and finally forced to endure a long trip to the slaughterhouse without food or water. There are no humane slaughterhouses-in fact, free-range and organic animals are often sent to the same slaughterhouses that kill animals from factory farms.

Industries that exploit animals like to put out statements or design labels that are designed to trick consumers into believing that they treat animals well. Two of the most heavily marketed "animal welfare programs" are "Swine Welfare Assurance Program" (SWAP) and "United Egg Producers (UEP) Certified." These labels are simply fancy names for factory farming-both were created by meat and egg lobbying groups, and both simply serve to put a happy face on the absolute worst practices in today's factory farms.

The UEP Certified label reads, "Produced in Compliance With United Egg Producers' Animal Husbandry Guidelines." What the label doesn't say is that the "guidelines" mean next to nothing. The program allows factory farmers to cut off hens' sensitive beaks with a hot blade, cram six or seven hens into a tiny cage where they can't spread even one wing, and house them in filthy sheds with more than 100,000 other hens. UEP had been stamping its egg cartons "Animal Care Certified," but after Compassion Over Killing sued the industry for misleading consumers, the industry was forced to adopt the less deceptive "UEP Certified" label. However, the exact same horrific treatment of hens continues. Watch what happens on UEP-certified farms.

The SWAP label shows a gentle hand cradling a pig. In reality, SWAP allows all the worst abuses, including keeping mother pigs in filthy cement-and-metal crates so small that they can't even turn around and cutting piglets' ears, yanking out their testicles, and chopping off their tails-all without any painkillers. SWAP even allows farms to kill sick piglets by slamming their heads into the pavement. Most people would agree that the products from animals who are abused in these ways should not be labeled "care certified" or "welfare assurance," but the meat and egg industries have adopted these phrases to con consumers and increase their profits.

Animal products with labels designed to make us feel good about eating animals are typically not much better for the animals themselves than the regular animal products are, but they are also nearly as harmful to our health. The only advantage that organic products have is that they are not laced with arsenic, antibiotics, or hormones. Although flesh from these animals might be safer than that from drugged animals, the best choice is to avoid all meat. Organic, natural, and free-range flesh, milk, and eggs are devoid of complex carbohydrates and fiber and are laden with artery-clogging saturated fat and cholesterol, just as all animal products are. Major studies linking the consumption of animal products to heart disease, cancer, and other leading killers suggest that it's these components of animal foods-animal fat, animal protein, and a lack of fiber-that cause disease. Organic and free-range animals are killed in the same filthy slaughterhouses as animals from factory farms, so their flesh is subject to the same bacterial contamination from unsanitary conditions as well.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

We just bought this book:


It has recipes including "Green Tea Cupcakes"


Amazing....

Bevy just pointed me toward a book I must get:


(from the site)
Quit your bitchin-they've heard you already! You read Skinny Bitch and it totally rocked your world. Now you want to know, "What can I cook that's good for me, but doesn't taste like crap?" Well, lucky for you, the Bitches are on the case. Self-proclaimed pigs, Rory and Kim understand all too well: Life without lasagna isn't a life worth living; chocolate cake is vital to our survival; and no one can live without mac n' cheese-no one. So can you keep to your SB standards and eat like a whale? Shit yeah, bitches. To prove it, Rory and Kim came up with some kick-ass recipes for every craving there is:

Bitchin' Breakfasts
PMS (Pissy Mood Snacks)
Sassy Soups and Stews
Down Home Cookin'
Grown-Up Appetizers
Happy Endings (Desserts)
And a ton more! They're all so good (and easy to make) you're gonna freak out. Seriously. What are you waiting for? Get your skinny ass in the kitchen!

It is all based on a vegan diet. Can't wait.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Stolen

'A lot of music now is trying to be cool and like, 'Yeah, I don't
really care about you' -- a really blase attitude,' she said. 'I think
it's much nicer to be in love, and throw yourself into it, and want to
lie in the road for that person.

'It's like the difference between having a dance in the middle of the
party and standing around the outside with a beer bottle trying to
look cool.'

-Amy Winehouse


This is how I feel about love, but I don't know if it feels the same way about me.

Recently

Travis' grandmother died. Their family is close. We were in Hector for the funeral. I hated everything about that day.

Derby season has begun. Last night was our first practice. 4 hours straight of practicing. My body hurts, but I love it.

My brother is here. He brought his entire recording set up. My living room has chords and speakers and computer screens galore. It's lovely.

Going to kill myself at the gym tonight. I just want to go home hurting, drink a little and then sleep.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Last Night...Ah hell part 35

Beginning of season Betties Party:

Captain Jay's pirate booty:


Getting down to Timbaland:


They're in love:


Hot derby action:

Friday, January 4, 2008

Blue Fears Pez Solutions

So I waited until the 4th for this, but hey I've been ill, so give me a break:

1. Go to the gym at least 5 days a week.
2. Lose 35 lbs
3. Buy as much local groceries as possible. (Farmer's market & ONF)
4. Do not enter Wal-Mart...ever again.
5. Record an EP.
6. Write really badass songs for said EP.
7. Stick to a monthly budget.
8. Build our savings.
9. Do a more work with Pug Rescue.
10. Cook more.
11. Eat less processed & otherwise monkeyed with foods.
12. Keep my closet clean.
13. Be a good girlfriend.
14. Overcome my fear of heights.
15. Be a good co-captain to my team and to Captain Riot & Captain Jay.
16. Become a good derby player.
17. Learn to be ok with saying "no". (taking on less responsibility)
18. Learn more PHP & Javascript.
19. Meditate daily.
20. Adhere to all of the above.

I love kale

It's my current addiction.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Lena

Lena, of course, took the Masquerade Ball to a whole new level. I LOVED her outfit. Complete with a crown she made herself and jeweled makeup mask. She sent me this photo this morning:

New Years Eve

Last night we attended the "Blue Masquerade" ball put on by Art Amiss. Apparently it was the only gig in town, because there were a million people in attendance. I was quite surprised. We were little sardines all night, but it was fun, fun, fun. Dancing, drinking (when could make it to the bar), and pure celebration.

I have GOT to get my little point and shoot fixed (ZAC!) because I hate not capturing any goings on outside of my house. We took these photos with the D50 before we left, but I am relying on others to send me photos of the actual night.

(These are like our prom photos back when your mom would make you take photos before walking out the door)

Bailey Boo & I


Me & T Dog


Me being saucy


Bailey Boo ready for the pageant


Me once again


Captain Jay Sparrow & Bailey Boo


The number one question asked "Where's Jesster?"